Diary 5/2/2017

Hi there,
On my way too school. Way too early but I have to be there at 8:15 when he starts over viewing our portfolio.  I've also noticed that today is the first anniversary of Carmen's death.  I feel like I'm going to have a break down at some point today. I'm afraid of that.  I'm two hours away from home.  Wasting four hours of my day to just think. That's a dangerous thing because I don't wanna think today. I don't wanna go down dark rabbit holes today. I just don't.
I'm going to try to make it. Deafen my brain with music.
Hugs,