I had tears
I had fears
all so consuming
I waded through.
trying to catch my breath.
this velvet dress just got heavier and heavier with each step
my heart aches
my throat is rash
it feels like it's closing with every thought
every memory brings more pressure
I can't breathe
I can't form the words
I've lost the ability to talk again
so where am I now?
the fears. The tears
they're still here
and so am I.
where's the shore?
cold, alone, hungry
where's the shore?
maybe I'll reach it soon
FleetwayXMephiles drabble
Krissie: Heads up, this is a Fleetway/Mephis fanfic. If Yaoi makes you uncomfortable feel free to go read something else.
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Fleetway stared at Mephiles. The grey and blue hedgehog was in a deep sleep. Fleetway enjoyed watching his chest rise and fall in a smooth rhythm. He couldn't describe how happy it made him to watch his boyfriend sleep. Mephiles didn't snore or make much noise in his sleep at all.
Fleetway was amazed by that. He had been told that everyone snored, but not his boyfriend. Maybe out had to do with the fact that Mephiles lacked a mouth.
Fleetway moved a stray strand from his quills out of his face. He carefully crawled out of bed. He stared at Mephiles as he made his way to the bathroom.
Mephiles was such a light sleeper. Fleetway didn't want to risk waking him up and ruining whatever dream he was having. Fleetway hating ruining Mephiles' peaceful slumber.
Once in the bathroom, Fleetway closed the door. He took a sigh of relief as his boyfriend hadn't woken up. Fleetway found himself brushing his teeth as he sat on the toilet. In one hand, he held a random bottle reading the ingredients in it.
The door clicked open and Fleetway looked up to see Mephiles standing in the doorway half awake. It was a rare sight, but Fleetway enjoyed it all the more.
Mephiles didn't have a scarf covering his mouth less muzzle. He wore one of Fleetway's old button up shirts from when he played basketball. His hair was messy and flowing every which way. Fleetway loved this look.
The half awake Mephiles turned the faucet and threw water into his face. He then turned to look at Fleetway, who smiled happily.
"Why do you pee sitting in the morning?" Mephiles tilted his head.
Fleetway laughed at the blunt statement. "I'm just more comfortable sitting to pee in the morning. Plus it makes it easier to poop in the morning."
Mephiles rolled his eyes as he grabbed his tooth brush. "Just don't be late for work," he laughed, "Your boss will lose her head if your late to work again cause you were pooping."
"Don't worry honey, I won't be," Fleetway smiled as he put the bottle he was reading down.
KRISSIE: I feel like re-writing an old story idea I had a few years ago.
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Amelia stood in front of the old rickety house. It wasn't made of stone like the church she had grown up in. It was made of old dull wood. It looked rough all the way around the house, but Amelia saw potential in it.
In this house was her independence. She would no longer be made to follow all those crazy rules in the church. She smile as she pulled out the keys. They were old, dusty things. But amazingly, there wasn't a single piece of rust on the keys. There were some splatters of paint on them. But that was about it.
She took in a heavy breath as she turned the key. The deadbolt gave a low clack sound. The top bolt was a higher pitch, but still a low sound.
Amelia half expected the door to squeak as she opened it. To her surprise it didn't. She picked up the large travel suitcase off the porch and brought it into the house.
"This is my new home," Amelia stated to herself. It was all so surreal to her still. She placed her bag in her new bedroom. It had already been made and by the looks of it. It has been made just for her.
the comforter was pastel colors and the design was that of flowers. It was a big blanket for a little girl, but Amelia smiled at it.
The old maintenance worker had left this house to her. He was a kind old man with silver hair. It was sad when he died. But everyone was surprised when he left everything to Amelia, a little orphan girl who lived at the church. Even Amelia, herself, was confused. But she packed up her things and accepted. This old house, all its possessions, and an old work truck where now hers.
Time to write a beach story.
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SHE brushed her hair out of her face. She was super excited for today. It was the first night she was going to be free in months!
She bit her lip as she stared at her face. She stared into her makeup drawer. Did she need any makeup? Would she look better or worse if she put some on? She was already dressed in her swimsuit.
"I'm going swimming," she thought to herself, "I don't need makeup for swimming." She closed the drawer as she tweaked with her hair some more. Her hair had gotten longer over the years and she had yet to cut it.
'Couldn't find the time,' was her common excuse when anyone asked. Though they only asked when she was complaining about its length.
She stood up and turned around in front of the mirror. Her swimsuit was a one piece. The top cut into a V. Strings of sea shells dangled from the the breast line all the way around. Since the section swimsuit that covered the stomach was transparent, most would thing it was a two piece.
Amy beamed at herself. She looked good and she liked that.
THE BEACH was as lively as it had ever. Several of Amy Rose's friends were there. Antoine and Bunny were walking along the beach, holding hands. It was beautiful. Hershey was laid back, tanning. Her husband, Geoffrey St. John, was asleep in a beach chair beside her. A book was covering his face. Sonic was standing by a grill, cooking food. Knuckles was helping him. Sally was building sand castles with Niccole, Blaze, Cream and Cheese. Amy saw Rouge, Tails, Mina, and several others swimming in the ocean.
Amy walked up to the sand castle group.
"Hey, what's up?" Amy waved as she walked up.
"Wow Amy!" Cream clapped her hands together. "You look like a model!"
Amy blushed.
"She's right. You really do." Sally beamed. "Where did you find a swimsuit like that?"
Amy rubbed her neck. "A family friend made it for me." Amy blushed at the thought of her mom's best friend, who also happened to be a fashion designer. But Amy was going to leave that part out.
"So what's been up with you?" Rouge flew up to them. "You've been in Merica so long, it feels like you forgot all about us."
Amy gave a nervous laugh. "I didn't forget. It's just been hectic. What with the new baby and little Jon going through puberty, Rob and Marian have their hands full. So I've been helping with a few minor things here and there."
"Well I hear you've been doing a pretty good job," Sally stated. "You're becoming quite popular."
"Yeah, is it true that someone sent you a whole kart of flowers last month?" Niccole asked with bright eyes.
"I heard that too!" Cream clapped her hands. "Is it true? Who were they from?"
Amy giggled. "It's true, a kart of flowers were sent to me, but they were potted. They were given to me because I mentioned I wanted to make a garden for some of the kindergartens in the country."
"That sounds awfully kind of the donator, but who was it?" Blaze pressed.
Amy sighed. "He told me he didn't want anyone knowing they came from him."
"We'll keep it a secret," Rouge smiled as she sat down.
Amy rolled her eyes. "I doubt that."
"Just tell us!" Cream begged, "I really wanna know!"
"Shadow sent them. Though I still don't know how he got so many," Amy added in thought, "But he's always had a soft spot for children."
"That's not all he has a soft spot for," Rouge muttered. "But that does explain why he was shipping so many boxes from my club last month."
"Yeah. I knew it was him the moment I read your address. It actually didn't take long for me to get him to confess to it. But he doesn't want others knowing, so," Amy held a finger over her mouth. The other girls mimicked.
With that they went on building sand castles and playing. Amy swam a far way out to sea and dove under. The fish she could see were beautiful. Amy loved the ocean for this fact. She could swim for hours. At least she would if she could breath under water.
Amy panicked as something almost fell on top of her. It was blurry, but it was obviously a person. She gasped at the surface and crossed her arms as Sonic the Hedgehog scattered to the surface.
"Somebody save me!" He cried.
"You have to learn to swim eventually Faker," Shadow called from the shore.
"Did you throw him in?" Amy turned to the ebony male with a stern look.
Shadow nodded.
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To Be Continued....
So today is national cat day. That's really cool. I had no clue it was a thing until today. Apparently it's been a thing since 2006 or 2008. I forgot what they said in class today. But it has made me want a cat even more today than I normally do.
I've always wanted one. But I can't because I don't have a job to financially take care of one or a home I could keep one at.
I've always wanted a pure black cat. They've always been so sweet to me and they tend to bring good luck to me when they're around.
my boyfriend, however, wants a pure white cat. He wants his cat to purposely be a jerk to him. And that's normally white cats.
we both really love cats, which is probably a big part of our bond at this point. We've even given our future pet cats names. Though we change the black cat's name often, our white cat has been given the name Noir. Though they're all imaginary pets right now.
we also discussed the possibility of just getting one cat. Since when we walk through pet stores that have cats for adoption, we both instantly fall in love with the black and white cats. I'm not sure why, but we both just feel a pool towards those balls of fluff. So recently we've begun discussing getting just a black and white cat and naming it Tugs or Tuggy.
I just really want to own a pet cat. But I can't yet and neither can my boyfriend right now. I'm going that when I graduate I'll be able to get a job and get my own place and then I'll be able to have a cat.
Shadow knew he probably shouldn't have been here. But he found himself in the past, he wasn't in too big of a hurry to get back to his time. He wore a cloak to hide his features. He made tracks to a place he knew where there was literally no people.
Little Big Planet.
The lake was beautiful as was the rest of the scenery. The planet had yet to appear, so Shadow was left playing the waiting game. He had to admit, he was curious about LBP looked like.
When the planet did appear, Shadow couldn't help but mumble, "So this is the place where she met Faker?"
He walked like he owned the planet. There were plenty of wildlife. He was glad no one lived nearby such a beautiful area. The people would have polluted it. He stopped when he heard a thump, it sounded like something had landed harshly. He looked up to see Metal flying through the air. He looked slightly damaged.
His eyes widened. "Rose!"
In less than a second, he stood over Amy Rose's collapsed form. She groaned as he picked her up to check for wounds. She wore a green shirt with a white collar. Her hair was styled diffidently, it was similar to Sonic's. But the red hair band hadn't changed. The yellow tutu was childlike and Shadow thought it matched her perfectly. Her purple shoes had long laces.
He propped her up against a tree. She had a few scrapes and bruises, but she would live. He began tying her shoes. Rose was clumsy, he was sure she was even more so as a child.
"Who are you?" She muttered as she leaned forward. Her emerald eyes were barely open but Shadow could see that they were the same emerald eyes.
"You fell. I'm merely trying your shoes so you won't fall again," Shadow stated.
She gave him a lopsided grin. "My laces aren't why I fell. I got scooped up by since robot. He dropped me after I hit it a few times."
"With your piko hammer?" Shadow asked to indulge her.
She widened her eyes. "How did you know about my hammer?!" She shuffled away from him.
"Is it a secret here?" He mused. Rose was always using her hammer on anything and anyone.
"Here? I've never been here. And I would've remember someone like you. Are you from the future?" Amy moved to stare under the hood of the cloak. Shadow jumped back some. "Your eyes are as red as a rubies!" She clapped her hands excitedly.
Shadow growled some. "Sshh... I don't want anyone to know I'm here."
"Because you're from the future?" Amy asked.
Shadow sighed. She already knew, there was no use denying it. "Yes, because I'm from the future."
Amy nodded. "Are you here to get the time stones so you can go back to your time?"
"Time stones?" Shadow repeated. "I've never heard of those."
"You haven't?" Amy tilted her head. "Then why are you here?"
"Rose talks so fondly of this place, I wanted to know what it was about this place that made her talk so about it." Shadow mumbled.
"Rose?" Amy tilted her head, "Your friend's name is my last name!"
Shadow patted her on the head. "You're an innocent soul Rose. Don't let that change."
"Oh. I'm Rose." Amy nodded getting it now. "Are we not close friends?"
Shadow started at her for a long moment. "What makes you say that?"
"You call me by my last name," she pouted.
"I..."
"Why aren't we close friends?" Amy demanded to know. "I want all of my friends to be close. So why aren't we close?"
"It's not that we're not close friends my time. It's just that I'm...." Shadow paused a moment, "I'm... Shy" he hated using that word. It made him sound weak, but it was the only word he could think of that she would understand. "I haven't had the best experience with making and keeping friends."
"You're afraid of getting hurt so you don't like to get to close?" Amy asked. Shadow nodded. Amy bit her lip in thought. "I know where the time stones are, you can use them to get back to your time. And when you get back, if you can me Amy, I'll give you a big warm hug! Ok?"
"But what if you don't remember bm meeting me?" Shadow mused. There was no way Amy would remember a promise from when she was a child.
"I'll remember for sure!" She stood tall and proud.
Shadow nodded. Then a smirk spread across his face. "Very well then. Can you make another promise to me?" Amy nodded happily. Her bangs falling into her face. Shadow was about to do something evil and he knew it, but Amy wouldn't remember anyway so it wouldn't do any harm. "If, by any chance, someone should ask you out on a date and you are not in a relationship were you and your partner aren't kissing, you have to accept that date. Do you understand?"
Amy smirked. "This reminds of a story my daddy told me. But sure. So when you get the guts to ask, I'll agree."
"What does that mean?" Shadow growled.
"You looked like some love sick boy when you said Rose earlier. I thought you were talking about someone else. " Amy shrugged. "But I am sorry if I break your heart."
Shadow glared at the young pink hedgehog. She had read him far too easily.
"I'm sorry if I ever break your heart," she bowed, "Now the time stones are this a-way. Follow me!" Amy walked off into the forest. Shadow followed behind her.
SHADOW WAS glad to be back in his proper time. Watching Amy constantly get kidnapped by Eggman was concerning, especially since he couldn't interfere.
He, however, wasn't planning on crash landing into Tails' living room. The table broke when he landed on it. Tails and Sonic freaked out and Shadow sat in silence as he tried to make sure he was in the right time.
"Dude! You've been gone for 2 months!" Sonic exclaimed, "Where have you been?"
Shadow shrugged. "Places."
Sonic frowned at that, but didn't push. He knew better then to try. "Well you sure did a number on the table."
That was true. The table was in fragments. Several splinters of which were embedded into Shadow's back. Tails wasted no time dialing their local nurse.
Amy Rose was there in minutes. She held a first aid kit in her hands. Shadow tried to just leave, but she would hear none of it. Shadow wound up laying down on the ironing board as she plucked the splinters out one by one. She tried to make small talk, but it was to no avail.
"So how have you been then?" Amy asked.
"I've been fine. The chaos control didn't go so well, so I wound up landing on the table." Shadow stated.
Amy nodded. "Anything new happen why you were away?"
"Not really, Amy." Shadow muttered. He promised the 7 year old her that he would call her by her first name at least once he got back to his time.
Amy froze as Shadow felt the awkward silence. He looked up at her to just see her standing there. Smiling like she had been dosed with joker gas. Shadow sat up, prepared to run.
"Rose? Are you okay?" Shadow tapped his fingers on the board.
She pounced a moment later. Shadow couldn't breath as he was engulfed by her hug.
"What's going on?" Sonic asked as he walked passed the doorway. "Should I just leave you two alone?"
"Help me!" Shadow rasped. "I can't breathe!"
Sonic sighed. He had been on the receiving end of Amy's famous death hugs. He knew the pain. He grabbed Amy's arm and pried her off.
"Let Shads breathe, Ames," Sonic ordered.
"Sorry! Sorry!" She said with a dopey grin. "I was just so happy when you caked called me Amy. I just wanted to hug so much."
"You finally called her Amy?" Sonic turned to Shadow, surprise and amusement on his face.
Shadow still trying to gain air into his body. "Yeah. But I think I'll stick to Rose. It doesn't leave me being suffocated."
"Aw..." Amy pouted some. "I really am sorry. I didn't mean to hug you so tight."
"Well either way, I just won a bet," Sonic laughed. He walked out into the hallway. "Tails, you owe me 100 bucks! He just called her Amy."
"Seriously?" Tails' voice echoed from where ever he was in the house. "I thought I would win for sure."
"They had a bet?" Shadow shook his head. He wasn't even going to try to figure them out. He turned to find Amy staring at him with a big crazy grin. It wasn't as bad as the joker grin, but it made him uncomfortable none the less.
"What?" Shadow scooted away from her. He wasn't about to be pounced this time.
Amy pouted. "You're not going to let me hug you again are you?"
"Not for a while," Shadow crossed his arms.
"Can I at least trying finish taking the splinters out of your back?" She gave her best puppy dog eyes.
"Yes," Shadow sat on the board again. "But I'm sitting up in case you try to hug me to death again."
Amy giggled as she began pulling the splinters out again. There were only a handful left. "So..." She began to make small talk again, "Did you like Little Big Planet?"
Shadow stiffened. "What makes you think I went to Little Big Planet?"
"Because that's were I promised I would hug you if you called me Amy." She stated. Shadow could hear the happiness in her voice.
"You still remember that?" Shadow asked. "You were like a tiny child."
"I do my best to remember all of my promises." Amy stated proudly.
"But I was wearing a hood!"
"I took a few peaks under it. Plus your voice is very distinctive."
Shadow grumbled. "Don't tell the others I was in the past."
"Of course not," Amy waved it off. "So what did you think of it?"
"It's a nice place. I see why you like it so much." Shadow shrugged.
Amy nodded. "So do youth you have any questions?"
"Not really. It was just a nice place to explore." Shadow replied.
Amy pouted some. "Okay. Well feel free to ask me any questions you may have." She pulled the last one out. "And you're all good! I've got movie night with the girls. So I'll catch you later."
Amy left quickly.
Shadow stretched on the porch before he made his run home. Then it hit him. She remembered everything. Shadow smacked himself in the face. "She wasn't asking about the planet..." He groaned. He took a deep breath as he ran. "Maybe if I don't bring it up ever again, she'll forget all about it."
She smiled like an angel. Her emerald eyes shone brighter than any emerald he had ever possessed. She was a delight to be around. One of the few people he cared so deeply for. Though he would never admit it.
While sitting at the table in the backyard, he looked up at the polka-dotted umbrella that shaded the table. A thought crossed his mind.
"How did she meet faker?" It was a thought that he hadn't voiced aloud, but a response soon came to him.
"Why don't you ask?"
Shadow's sharp eyes darted to Rouge the Bat. She had been flying around when she spotted her co-worker and decided to fly down and say hi.
"It's none of my business." Shadow was curt with his excuse. It was just a moment of curiosity. He should bit it down before he wound up like that cat.
Rouge chuckled. "Very well," she sat in the chair beside him, "Then I'll hang around until you do."
Shadow scoffed.
"Oh hi Rouge!" Amy was surprised to see the white bat. "What brings you by?"
"I just stopped by to say hi." Rouge grinned.
"Would you like some tea and cake then? If you don't like tea, I have lemonade and some soda in the fridge." Amy offered. The two didn't always get along, but Amy was in too good a mood to fight with the bat.
"if the soda's in a can, bring me one of those," Rouge winked at the girl.
Amy disappeared into the house.
Rouge turned to the ebony hedgehog, "Why don't you help her with that heavy tray?"
"Rose is perfectly capable of carrying it herself." Shadow rebutted.
Rouge rolled her eyes.
Amy reappeared quickly with a smile ave served up tea for Shadow, soda for Rouge, and Lemonade for herself. She gave everyone a good size piece of strawberry shortcake.
Shadow ate in quiet. Enjoying the silence.
"So Amy, I'm curious," Rouge began, "How did you meet Sonic?"
Amy blinked for a moment. She smiled, a small blush forming on her cheeks at the mention of the man she loved.
Shadow hated that the very mention of faker could create such a reaction in her. Faker didn't deserve it. Not with how many times he had made Rose cry.
"It was so long ago," Amy began, "I doubt you," she glanced up at Shadow, "Two would want to hear it."
"Oh, but I do!" Sang Rouge.
Amy looked at Shadow nervously. She knew the two men weren't the best of men, so she did her best not to mention Sonic around him.
"Please, just indulge her." Shadow stated. "The sooner you do, the sooner she'll leave you in peace."
"You sound like you're talking from experience," Rouge pretended to sound hurt.
"I am," was his blunt reply.
Amy giggled. "Very well. It was several years ago. I was 8. Sonic was 11. I had done a tarot card reading and it told me I would meet my true love on Little Big Planet. So I went there and I met Sonic! It was wonderful! Well, at least until Metal and Eggman showed up." Amy frowned at their names. She was soon beaming, "But Sonikku saved me. I've done my best to be with him ever since."
Shadow sat expressionless. There were so many things wrong with that.
Rouge pondered a moment. "So you read some cards and just trusted them? Doesn't that seemed a bit flawed?"
"Of course not."
Rouge sighed. "You know most people don't believe in fortune telling. Most just see it as amusing. And yet, here you are putting all your faith in it?"
Amy glared at the bat. "Of course. Tarot cards are hardly ever wrong."
Rouge nodded, trying not to laugh at the naive girl. "And why do you think Sonic is your true love? What if he wasn't the one the cards were directing you to. What if you're supposed to meet a different guy there and you just made a mistake chasing the wrong guy?"
Amy sat back stun. She had never thought that she was supposed to meet someone else there. Doubt now crept into her and she hated it. She didn't like doubt. She bolted from her seat and disappeared into the house.
"Rouge," Shadow growled, "Did you have to say it like that?"
"You were thinking harsher things," she spat back.
"Yeah, but I kept them to myself." Shadow pointed out.
Amy returned with a deck of cards and incense. Her emerald eyes dulled from doubt shuffled the cards.
"Are we playing poker?" Rouge asked in a half whisper.
"No. I'm going to do a reading." Amy responded as she began placing the cards on the table. Once the pattern was laid out, she flipped them over one by one. A smile appeared on the first few, but a frown soon appeared as she flipped the rest over.
Amy was dead quiet as she stared at the cards. A tear fell down her cheek. She gulped back her sadness as she looked at Rouge. "You're right." She whispered, "I fell in love with the wrong person."
"You got all that from one card reading?" Shadow didn't seem to believe it.
"How could I made such a mistake? I should have done a card reading about the both of us," Amy began to ramble.
"Hey, hey," Rouge grabbed her shoulders, "You were young. You were just so excited. You don't regret meeting Sonic and making all the friends you have now, do you?"
"No." Amy shook her head. "But I do regret some of my behavior. If I hadn't been so over-protective of Sonic, he could have already met someone."
"Amy, you're too sweet some times." Rouge shook her head, "Sonic only loves running right now."
The two girls shared a laugh it was true.
"I just wonder who it was that I was supposed to meet on Little Big Planet." Amy muttered softly as she picked up her cards.
